Totally Shag day~

Stars:

OMG!
Microbiology module today.
Going crazy because of the terms.
And so tired because of my health!
Getting weaker and weaker.
Reflection Journal was almost a killer.
But actually it was easy.

Scroll through my instagram.
Saw my daughter.
Change so much. so pretty.
Teehee. Love the way she doll up~

1 more day to pay day~
Shopping Spree~

Restless day!~

Stars:

Did not get enough sleep last night.
Wake up with dry eyes and quite sore.
Wore spectacles to school 8)
Had the most restless day today.
Had Molecular and Cell Biology today.
Really dont know what concept should i get.
Really restless today!~
Worst day ever!~
Dont even know why...


Simple request is it so hard?
I just hope i will be able cling on like a bat.
Suffocating sooner or later.


~2more days to pay day ! ^^

I lost myself to you

Stars:

Had my first cognitive module today.
My facilitator was okay.
Not sure of my grade yet . hahas
The day was so tired.
The feel of having another guy around?
Does it wavers my heart?
I dont think so.
But he is treating me much better than you should.


Didnt have a good sleep last night.
I break down in the middle of night (2am)
Starting to feel i lose myself to you.

 

 

I stared up at the sun
Thought of all the people, places and things I've loved
I stand up just to see
Of all the faces,
you are the one next to me

You can feel the light start to tremble
Washing what you know out to sea
You can see your life out the window, tonight...

If I lose myself tonight
It'll be by your side
I lose myself tonight...
Yeah, Yeah , Yeah !

If I lose myself tonight
It'll be you and I...
Lose myself tonight

*Instrumental*

I woke up with the sun
Thought of all the people, places and things I've loved
I woke up just to see
Of all the faces
you are the one next to me

You can feel the light start to tremble
Washing what you know out to sea
You can see your life out the window, tonight...

If I lose myself tonight
It'll be by your side
I lose myself tonight...
Yeah, Yeah, Yeah!

If I lose myself tonight
It'll be you and I...
Lose myself tonight
Whooooooo...Whooo ,Awhooo

 

~ I dont know what to feel anymore. I only know i tried. How much do you understand?

Do you even remember?

Stars:

Went out with parents today.
Sis gotten her Frank Card.
And i settle my Frank Card stuffs.
Walk around at JP and didnt get anything.


Happy 2nd monthsary dearest.
We had numerous quarrels this month.
Numerous disappointment between us.
Or just in me?
Maybe i just have too much expectation from you after our first month.
I dont know how to open up to you.
Feeling so burdensome so demanding.
I wish i can dont care,  but seems like it's so tough.
i really dont know how much longer i can hold.
I think i will break down sooner or later again.


Why am i so petty? Remember the bad things so clearly?
~sometimes i wish i can put the past behind, but it seems like it's so hard to do so.
I wish i had forgiven you. But it seems it was carved deeply in my heart.

Unproductive day!~

Stars Stars:

Today was the most unproductive day i guess.
Stayed indoor the whole day after morning trip to the market.
Wifey came over into the noon to nua and do some catching up with me~
Esther mummy came over after so long.
She help me to trim my hair as well as wifey.
Thanks!


After that went out in the evening to had my dinner.
Had Samurai Chicken Burger.
As expected,
I eat like a baby.
So messy!~


I wonder do you remember?


~ i miss you like no one else does.

Thank god it's FRIDAY!~

Starr:

Today was having Biochemistry module.
The problem was quite understandable,
was not as tough as i thought.


Dearest came over to find me for lunch
Something happen.
Make dearest so jealous,
so cute hahas !~
Feeling better after he talked to me.
Thanks dearest!~


Caught my drama at 9pm.
Review: Awesome Ending. Xu Bin and Julie kisses were so natural. If they could be together in real life, they would be a perfect match.


~Happy girl today overall.

Feel like giving up~

Stars:

Train were disrupted this few morning.
I cannot stop complaining~
Long waiting time.
Delayed~
Make my friend wait.
I am so saddddd


I don't know how much longer i can hold.
Everyday, i feel like breaking down.
I want to  speak my mind.
But i need to hide it to myself.
One's torture better than both..
I just wish you can understand.


~i never run at your pace, it is forever makingg me so tired

helpless day~

Stars Stars:

Had my Microbiology lesson today.
The facilitator was so ....
Unable to describe.
But not too bad...
Feeling so stress up today with my presentation slide.


Feeling so tired today....
And helpless....
I dont know why....
I feel so helpless...
I keep having those negative thoughts.
And i cannot help myself, but tears start flowing.


How much do i have to go through?
Im just too tired. I need a break from this world.
I badly want a day to myself.
Nothing in my thoughts, just me myself.
I need a runaway alone...


~Im just too selfish...

Happy day with good drama

Star Star:

Started my New Semester in School today.
Had Molecular and Cell Biology lesson today.
Met my new classmates and teammate.
Funny teammates.
Good to know them.
Didn't spend time with dearest today.
Bad boy :(


My RJ topic:
 Reflecting on your past and the future ahead,
how has it defined your driving force for this module?
Describe what you are doing/would do to fulfill your own expectations.


So hard to write can!
But managed to finish it.


Took a short nap just now.
and managed to wake up in time for my 9pm drama.


Title: Gonna Make it.
Summary: Story on XiaoXiao being released after street fight and caused tragedy on her best friend May. After her released, she met Oscar and pursue her dream as hair stylist . She met alot of up and down along the path to success. Luckily, she meet ah Man, whom is a reknown hair stylist, who appreciate her passion and skills. He decided to take XiaoXiao as his apprentice/disciple......


Tonight plot: After Ahman illness have spreaded, his life was upside down. He managed to see the true colour of the people and appreciate XiaoXiao's effort. He left the world with regrets as Monica did not come to see him with his last breathe.


Review: Awesome story plot. It has made me cry literally. Bryan with his good acting skills incoporate with Julie. They were so perfect. It was like so long since Bryan appear on screen for drama. He was always a television host. Julie never disappoint me with her acting skills.


Love it to the max~
Forwarding tomorrow episode.
Forwarding the next show, production by WAWA.


~人生如戏，戏如人生

Shagggg... Tired max~

Stars:

Feeling so awful when i woke up.
Wanted to go back to sleep.
But i have to crawl up for my paper in the noon.


English paper in the noon.
Dont know how well i did.
Not really confidence.
Pray really hard that i would pass....
But finally....
I get it over and done with.



Grandma sister came over in the evening to stay overnight.
She keep praising me, so shy.
I feel so bad, i dont think im so good.
Hahas, laughing in my heart.
Quite happy though...


~ROAR! I miss your scent~

Sick

Stars Stars:

Literally fall sick consecutive for two weeks.
What happen?
Did  my body wear out?
Really cannot tank overnight.
Too weak for that.

And tomorrow is my important day.
Retaking my English paper.
And i fell sick. WTS!
Hopefully i feel better tomorrow.


Went out in the evening with parents for dinner.


Seriously, i dont even know what i am thinking...
Why do i give up so easily when i go through a hard time getting it.
All i want is simple things ..
Isit so hard?


~Way back into love.
Sometimes when i think back, i feel its so cute being with you. I just hope that lasted longer

Lying through my teeth

Star:


Slept for only 2hours last night.
Didnt have enough sleep literally.
Follow my sister to camp outside JP for Running.
End up she get disappointment.
Got home at 8+ took an half an hour nap and went to market with my grandma.
Got home at 11am and bathe.
And Singtel people came over to do up the modem and phone.
And i went to nap. So tired.~
Fell asleep within 5minutes.
Woke up at 3+...
Then nua until 6pm for dinner.
Prawns for dinner ^^
Nom Nom


Fell sick again.
Cannot do anything but to wish.
Sometimes i feel like acting unreasonable like a kid.
But i guess i shall stick with containing them.
I just hope you will feel me someday.
Or maybe not?
Like what happen. History repeats itself.
i can endure for 8months already. What with just two weeks?


~Should i go back to my old self?

Random

Star:

Was home all day long.
Did some studying.
Ate alot of junk food today.
I think dearest will scold me :(
ROAR!~

曾經 快樂多容易
只要 能夠在一起
單純的夢 在承諾裡 有多開心
時間 帶走了曾經
防衛 每一顆真心
現在的妳 就怕 太沈溺

但是我會很努力
用愛 撫平懷疑
讓你能相信 幸福觸手可及

不要害怕明天
我會 陪妳一起冒險
不管多坎坷多危險
我會一直守護妳的世界
不要害怕明天
我會 陪妳一起發現
愛情 沒界限 沒期限
都有我陪在妳的身邊

PS: you need come up with alot of excuses to cover your lies.


~Craving for your scent to sooth my soul (too drama)

Did i make a mistake?

Stars:

I'm really in a dilemma...
Am i unreasonable?
Am i asking too much from you?
All i want is just simple, like every girls .
Am i making too much  trouble?
Making myself feeling so tired from everything?

Did I even make the correct choice?
I understand that i may not come in first but at least stand some place.
But i don't...

It is really hard to make a choice.
Gaining and Losing?
It is just a matter of time.
And how much i cherish it?
I hate this feeling?
Why am i standing alone in this?

PS: Sorry for everything today. Sorry if i make a big fuss about it..

Tiring day~ More thoughts

Stars:

Didnt catch enough sleep last night.
Was thinking alot in the night.
Waking up again and again.
Hoping to see your reply.
Luckily your reply  wasn't that bad.

Wake up early to get over to mom's house.
For something.
And went for prata eating. Nom Nom~
Slack around at JP with my sister.
After that my sister follow me to Woodland.
Because she need to go to school.
And the bad thing was, i sleep so unglamly in the train.
"I WANT TO FIND A HOLE AND DIG!~"
-if only you were beside me- i didnt haven to keeping knocking out-

END MY WORK LIFE FOR THIS HOLIDAY! EARLY ALSO! 8pm!
Rushed home for my drama.
Miss 5 mins of it i think~

不在乎过程，不在乎多久，只在乎曾经拥有！
我应该珍惜现在，把每一次每一天过得开心一点！
失去了才不会感到遗憾！

Thoughts

Stars:

I wish i could shimmer and shine upon your world.

I'm in a dilemma. Nothing could be more important than you.
First time i'm putting everything else aside for you.
Sometimes your words doesn't hurt but make me think.
This time deeper.
Our future? or so?
How long can we walk together?
How many footprints are we leaving together?

Everythings seem so blur.
This time i have to walk alone.
To sort out my thoughts.
No one can interrupt it.
How long will it take?
Seriously, i'm not sure.
Just let it be? Let fate decide?
I just hope i wouldn't have a hard time holding on.
Sometimes it is really tiring~

PS: Trust is the basic things among people especially coming to couple.

~GOD save me from this! I need a guide to the next star light to see my future.
May you open up my eye, and stop me from being blinded.
GUIDE ME PLEASE MY LORD!~

Painful day!

Stars Stars:

Stupid and Dumbass meeeee...
Cut myself today again~
Pain Pain - Hais, no one even bother to scold me.

Today work was ok.
Colleague was chatty enough to be.
Quite happy today. got people praise me today.
and a customer frome National Sports Team.
Kawaii and Polite :P

Urgh...
Nothing to update~
So bored.
I MISS YOU~

Misunderstanding or Misrepresentation

Stars stars stars:

Writing my blog with last 10% on my phone.
Started my day by lazing on bed and late for meet up with my parents.
Went to holland V -wonderful place.
And some condo hunting.
And back home with grocery to replenish me and my sister monthly supply.

Getting back on track with you.
Seem like we distance.
I dont know why.
But sometimes your words make me think.
Rubbish thoughts ? Unrealistic thoughts ? Forwarding thoughts ?

Everytime i forward to something and it was gone in a click . Just by a word. My heart shatter. Tears well up. My world seems to end. WTS  is this. Seriously.
My world is all over you. Easily affected by you. So how much do you mean to me ?  And how much do i mean to you ?

I did feel nothing when im with you. I guess im comfortable with it.
But the next moment you are gone. My world is distorted.
This feeling sucks to the max please.

I love it when you read my mind. I hate it when u become sacarstic. I take your love words for granted maybe cause im afraid to trust you or im afraid to lost you.

PS:  WHAT HAVE BECAME OF ME TODAY ?

Weird Thoughts~

Stars Stars Stars:

Last night, i woke up in the middle of the night.
Drench in water.
Machiam just soak in a pool.
But i was drench in my sweat.
IT WAS LIKE EEEEEE!
Got up and bath~
And texted dearest.
And fell back asleep while waiting for his reply :(


Feeling better after medication and all the sweating.
Lose some weight.
But i guess still not what i wanted.
and not your expectation yet.
FAR FROM IT!
FIGHTING !!!!~ GAMBATEH!!~
START WITH SUCCESS.
Not to be overboard.


And i watch "
Title: Amazing f(x)
Review: They requested for an overseas trip to new zealand as they all pass 20s and wish to fulfil some of their bucket list. SO COOL! BUNGEE JUMP! SCUBA DIVING! FISHING! SKYDIVING!
Do catchup with f(x) awesome bucket list. Challenge! Fighting!


Now i also want to come up with some of my bucket list.
I had a few in mind now :P


BUCKET LIST
1) Travel with wifey
2) Travel with boyfriend
3) Tour whole japan
4) Scuba Diving in Maldive


OMGOMG!~ So forwarding to start my bucket list :(

Sorry~

Stars:

Sleeping for almost whole day.
Sleep eat, medicine.
This was my rountine today.

I know you care,
but do you mind standing in my shoes?
I have been on medication for the past few month.
Every month without failed,
i have been sick, on medication.
Obviously, im dread of it.
Not to say, visiting the doctor.

Sigh...
I just a burden, aint ?
Sorry for making you worry..

Sick

Stars :

Woke up feelingg so sick.
Still managed to survive today.
Wishing you were here with me.
Feeling so bad.
Strengthless, bodyache.
Sometimes i just wish i can sleep forever and not waking  up.
I hate the terrible moments,
when im sick,
and i have to drag myself of bed to do something that wasn't suppose to be my job.
I hate it when im sick,
and no one even bother.
I hate the feeling of crying rush up when i am sick.
I'm tired of  everything.
Sometimes i just wish i could vanish into the air.


Some quotes:


“I love the stars.
Because they can't say anything.
I love the stars.
Because they do not judge anyone.” 
― Natsuki Takaya

“I like the night. Without the dark, we'd never see the stars.” 
― Stephenie Meyer, Twilight

PS: Sorry for making you feeling irritated with me around...

Terrible feeling~

Stars, wishing i could shimmer like you do in the dark sky.

Was away for Chalet with m y AYSEM1 2013 classmates.
for 3D2N.
Didnt sleep alot at chalet.
We were like a owl.
I think i only slept 3hours each day~
Was feeling so horrible since last night at chalet.
And i survive last night till today.


Back home today.
HOME SWEET HOME~
But still feeling so unwell~
Terrible feeling.
Feeling so sick and strengthless (helpless)

Suppose to go on a date with you/wifey.
But im too shag~
Just want a good rest.
Sorry~

Perfect day ~

Upon a star,

Life was simply perfect today.
Manage to catch some sleep last night.
Woke up with porridge ready to serve with fried egg and braised meat.
Did an essay in the afternoon with my wifey help.
After that,went out to get cake and wrapping paper.

~Prepare for tonight dinner~

Head to Arena Country Club Tung Lok Restaurant.
Had Buffet.
Awesome Chinese buffet with my beloved prawns.
Non Nom.~
Gonna gain some weight. Had more than 10 of it :(
Sigh pie.~
Had advanced birthday celebration in the restaurant for my mom and cousin.
Happy 8th birthday to you Xavier
Happy 44th birthday to you Mom~
Had a good dinner.
But now had a terrible time.
because im bloated~

~Read my mind like you do before.

Mixed emotional

Upon a star~


Have been feeling emotional unstable this few days.~
PMS i say~
Bad day start by waking up early to go to the market with grandma.
And had to head out to town.
Withdrawn $100
Spend $50 on clothings.
Left $10.
And the rest was spend on food and loan some to my sister. :(
2 Highwaist shorts and a crop hoodie.


Didnt really have a nice date with you.
But managed to pass you what i wanted to pass you.
Sigh pie.
plus your bad news to me.
Double hitback. K.O!~

Sigh pie~

Today was a fairytale [Dilemma]

Upon a star~

Went out near afternoon.
Did some window shopping at JEM.


Feeling troubled the whole day.
So many questionmark upon oneself. [?????]
Feeling so burdensome towards you.
Feeling so bad making you feel bad towards me.
Everything was so upside down.
Everything seems so fairytale to me~


Thanks for being there and your words did help in calming me down.
Knowing your presence and you do care.

Thoughtd run wild

Dear blog~

Went for braces appointment this morning.
The doctor make till my teeth very pain :(
but i got two colours on my teeth now :D
blue and pink. teehee^^

Went to work after that.
Today sales was above average.
quite busy.
cannot handle so many customer with two of us.
So stress, but manage to handle them.
Thanks for this understanding customer.
Liting came over after her work..

Tiring day i shall say.

Forwarding to saturday meet-ups~ ^^

Pissed ~

Dear blog,

gotten back the sleep i lost last few working day.
yay~
went out in the afternoon to have a walk.
didnt have my dinner tonight.
all was junk food.

so pissed off with everything today.
PS: stop calling me from far. so irritating.
Just tell me once and i will remember it~

And i really want to stay overnight for the chalet.
Why cant you stop being so overprotective?
So pissed!~
Im all grown-up.

Tomorrow still got braces appointment and work.
Hope tomorrow time pass fast~

I just want to runaway tonight~ ROAR~
There is alway imperfect moment in my life.
Why cant it be 10 out of 10 every single moment in my life?

Tiring yet happy.

Dear blog,

it has been a few day since i last post.
Had been working for straight 9days of sales.
So tiring~
Finally ended my consecutive day of work.

Today was a better day than before.
Got up and catch wifey for breakfast.
Had a hard time eating it :(
And went cotton on spree~
Got myself a Dungaree and Cardigan.
Sastified~ mmmmm~

And on my way to work,
when i thought my shift start at 12pm
when it was 11am :(
So i ended up late~
But time passes quite fast in the day .

Dearest came to find me after work.
He follow me all the way to Boonlay.
Balancing skill was bad enough on the train.

~Your scent always satified my craves.