A feeling i can't describe

Indeed!
Talking to you is big challenge to me.
It's like I have to make the effort to climb the mountain to get to you.
I just want to break this ice between us.
It's getting colder and colder.
OR
Is it getting warmer and warmer ?
I just cannot differentiate.
The importance of your presence now..
Sometimes I think that I could live without you anymore.
But it just seem that I couldn't put your daily life off my track.
I still observe your daily routine..
 I want to know you more.
Inside and Outside.
No matter how much time it takes to get into you.
Maybe I/m too pessimistic ..
But I just can't to drop this feeling...
People was asking ,
why am I protecting you after all of those words coming from your mouth...
But have they seen the inner soul of yours?
Ok...
You might be laughing again.
Trying to say that I think I know you too well when I actually don't.
But have you pause your life for a moment to think?
Your words doesn't synchronise with your actions.
REWIND what you have done and what you have not.
I'm not trying to be like ...
WOW I KNOW YOU DEEP INSIDE..
But I just wanna be the one who is able to look into the deepest part of you.
Maybe you think all of this are nonsense.
But I hope that I will be there if you need someone to confide in.