#Lifeless Saturday

Stars:


I wonder if you are still reading?
But im still continue my story.

Had a continuous dream about you again.
A weird one...
Maybe this dream will never come true.
#Dreams #Wishes #hallucinating


Went to the market this morning again.
Sooo Soo tired.
Have to drag myself up... without any choice.


Finish market,
and unpack grocery.
and went back to sleep.
Feeling so tired, strengthless and helpless.
My sister force me to take medicine, because i rejected...
I broke down again..
Everytime i feel helpless, i breakdown...
Wishing you were here...
Someone scolding me...
Someone being angry with me...


Accompany my sister to her concert at Clarke Quay.
Getting myself drenched and i fell down...
What a way to start a fruitful trip...
Get  a view of Clarke Quay Clubs and Restaurant.
Nice place :D
Feeling really tired when my sister enter her concert hall.
I went back home...
And i broke my sister's shoe AGAIN!
Finding myself forget the keys and no one is at home...


WHAT A DAY!~


Went to my mom's place for shelter...
Really have no strength to loiter anymore.
Bad health!~
Everything is not going my way.
Aunt got me my RUM RAISIN ICE  CREAM!~
NOM NOM~
Forced myself to finish it, this time round...



I don't know why am i still so pessimistic about you.
I can choose to put you down.
But i just cannot do it.
Everything i do, i will think of you.
People saying im stupid...
Asking me to give up...
But im still clinging on...
I suppose there are reason behind it...
I just just hope we were fine till now.
I choose to give up in the beginning because i dont want to be a choice of yours.
Sigh pie....
Just one sided again.


If everything could rewind...
maybe all of this will not happen.
Rather keep it all silence and let the feeling fade.
It was suppose to be like that, aint??
Just keep it one sided from the start till the end...


NOW you just telling me you are not worth after you started it.
Just what are you thinking?~
You dont know how well im able to read your words ?
Im sorry then...